Jeff's hands reached out to take Nick's, because right now, if there was one thing that was important to him above all, it was for Nick to know that, no matter how this conversation, or any subsequent ones turned out, they were together. They were a team, they'd made vows, and as far as Jeff was concerned, there was no turning back from that, nor would he have wanted there to be. This wasn't easy. But marriage wasn't ever meant to be easy all the time. It would always be a joining of two people... two people who had different thoughts and ideas about things, and who sometimes even wanted different things. But that was where understanding and compromise came in. Jeff and Nick had never failed to work their way through a disagreement together, and Jeff would be damned if they started now. "I know that, Nicky. We got married because we love each other, and we wanted to have a life together. There wasn't even an understanding when we got married that we'd have Nat. We decided that afterward, and..."
Fuck. Before he'd even completed that sentence, Jeff's mind was racing a million miles a minute and it was like something just clicked for him as to what Nick was saying. It didn't change the fact that he wanted another baby by any means, and that was still going to take some time for him to think about and figure out -- no, for them to figure out, because them figuring things out separately that concerned both of them had already been enough of a problem. "Nicky, I'm sorry," he said softly, meeting and holding his husband's gaze with a very sincere apology written all over his face. "Listen, I'm not sorry I want another baby, but you shouldn't be sorry if you don't, either. I... I didn't mean to make it sound like my opinion was right, and you were completely wrong, because that's not true. It's not a matter of right or wrong, it's a matter of what we want and need as a family. Together. And that's just it. We're a family. Which means that neither of us... me included and probably foremost in the epic fail department... should make decisions or plans that involve our family's future without each other. I made a decision about what I wanted, and I didn't consider you the way I should. That was my fault, and I'm sorry. I love you, Nicky, and this was never a thing I wanted to come between us or strain what we have." His hands still holding onto Nick's, Jeff looked down at the wedding band on his finger. "We made vows to do what was best for us... as a couple, as a family. And we need to back up, I think. I don't want this to become an emotional pissing contest of who's right and who's wrong. That won't get us anywhere."
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Fuck. Before he'd even completed that sentence, Jeff's mind was racing a million miles a minute and it was like something just clicked for him as to what Nick was saying. It didn't change the fact that he wanted another baby by any means, and that was still going to take some time for him to think about and figure out -- no, for them to figure out, because them figuring things out separately that concerned both of them had already been enough of a problem. "Nicky, I'm sorry," he said softly, meeting and holding his husband's gaze with a very sincere apology written all over his face. "Listen, I'm not sorry I want another baby, but you shouldn't be sorry if you don't, either. I... I didn't mean to make it sound like my opinion was right, and you were completely wrong, because that's not true. It's not a matter of right or wrong, it's a matter of what we want and need as a family. Together. And that's just it. We're a family. Which means that neither of us... me included and probably foremost in the epic fail department... should make decisions or plans that involve our family's future without each other. I made a decision about what I wanted, and I didn't consider you the way I should. That was my fault, and I'm sorry. I love you, Nicky, and this was never a thing I wanted to come between us or strain what we have." His hands still holding onto Nick's, Jeff looked down at the wedding band on his finger. "We made vows to do what was best for us... as a couple, as a family. And we need to back up, I think. I don't want this to become an emotional pissing contest of who's right and who's wrong. That won't get us anywhere."