Nick held Jeff's hand but he couldn't help but release a long, tired sigh. "I don't want us to fall out over this. I don't want it to all be awkward and weird, because that will impact on Nat too. You know I'm usually really open to at least considering something seriously if I think in any way we can make it work for us, but this is just sitting strangely inside. I wish I could explain why but I was always raised to trust my gut instinct and my gut is just telling me this is... it's going to strain our relationship. Another baby when we're only just making all our schedules work well as it is. Do you remember what it was like when she was a baby? There was no schedule. It was crazy. Another baby would be that plus a new school schedule to fit around as well as trying to run a business and me working on commissions which we can't deny bring in our biggest income. Think about all that and then tell me where the us time is supposed to come into that? I mean seriously, Jeff. Not just head in the newborn baby clouds because empty nest syndrome is making yo nervous with Nat going to school. Because the first thing that will give is our time together, which we have very little of as it is. And I don't know about you, but I don't want to be one of those couples barely holding their marriage together by a thread for the sake of their children."
"I was just getting frustrated. It sometimes feels like you forget how to listen to me when you get your mind set on something and that just makes it hard for me to try and get my point across, that's all. But I mean it when I say I don't want any of this stuff impacting on Nat. We have to work it out together when she's not around. Because like it or not, a new baby is going to be one of the biggest things in her life she ever faces. It will go from her having both of our focus and love and attention to having to share it with a baby, and I don't know. I adore my sisters and brothers, but I always wished I had more time with just my folks. I can't deny that, even if it makes me a bad person. You need to not just consider me in all this, babe, you really need to considering her... and probably more before me. Just because, aww yay cute, she will have a little brother or sister to play with. I'm talking how much it will impact on her entirely. I'm not writing this off, all I'm saying is that right now, I'm happy. I'm 100% happy and content with our life, and with our little family we have of our own. I just want to enjoy that right now. Enjoy all our hard work, and cruise a little. Because we really haven't done that at all in our lives yet."
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"I was just getting frustrated. It sometimes feels like you forget how to listen to me when you get your mind set on something and that just makes it hard for me to try and get my point across, that's all. But I mean it when I say I don't want any of this stuff impacting on Nat. We have to work it out together when she's not around. Because like it or not, a new baby is going to be one of the biggest things in her life she ever faces. It will go from her having both of our focus and love and attention to having to share it with a baby, and I don't know. I adore my sisters and brothers, but I always wished I had more time with just my folks. I can't deny that, even if it makes me a bad person. You need to not just consider me in all this, babe, you really need to considering her... and probably more before me. Just because, aww yay cute, she will have a little brother or sister to play with. I'm talking how much it will impact on her entirely. I'm not writing this off, all I'm saying is that right now, I'm happy. I'm 100% happy and content with our life, and with our little family we have of our own. I just want to enjoy that right now. Enjoy all our hard work, and cruise a little. Because we really haven't done that at all in our lives yet."