"We're not going to fall out," Jeff assured Nick. "It's a disagreement, baby, not the end of the world. And I fucking love you, no matter what we agree or disagree on. This doesn't have to cause any problems for us. Maybe we can come back and visit it at another time when we both think we might be ready to have another baby, but we're adults, Nicky. We can handle disagreeing, and Nat doesn't ever need to know we disagreed at all on this. I don't want that, either, babe. I mean, I've lost count over the years of how many times you and I were trying to have some private time, whether it was sex, or just cuddling and talking, and Nat woke up from a bad dream or something, and that was just the end of that. I've never been good at thinking on a practical level. You know that about me. I always think of all the happy awesome stuff. I know that makes it hard on you sometimes when I'm all excited and you have no choice but to be the voice of reason in it all. I just... I remember all that hard stuff from when Nat was a baby, but it was worth it to me then, and I know that when and if we do have another kid, we'll put in the effort the same way, and it'll be awesome all over again. But... But you're right. That doesn't mean that now's the right time."
Jeff couldn't argue with Nick's reasoning. They had fought tooth and nail for this little life they'd built for themselves, and this was the first time that they were truly comfortable. Nick's job was fantastic, Natalia was older and would soon be going to school, and usually, she went to bed at night and slept all night, leaving her daddies to get their much needed time together, too. This would change all of their lives, including hers, and Jeff knew that those things needed to be well taken into consideration before anything could be done that would shake them up. "Okay," Jeff replied, quietly but firmly. "Now's not the time. It isn't you're right. I really was all caught up in the cutesie side of it, and that wasn't really fair. I love you, babe. I love you, and whatever we do we need to do together, and we need to both be in it 100%. Just like when we got married, when we had Nat, when we opened the gallery. All of that stuff has worked out perfectly for us, because we've both been ready and sure." He leaned close, cupping Nick's cheek with one hand before he kissed him softly. "I love you, you know. and I do listen to you, as much as it sometimes seems like I don't." Sighing, he shook his head just a little. "Sometimes I wonder how you manage to put up with me, Nicky," he said lightly, kissing his husband's cheek. "I know I drive you crazy sometimes. I'm glad you still love me." It was a light, teasing comment, but there was some truth behind it. Jeff knew that he could be frustrating to Nick, and very often was. But they just somehow managed to work together in a way that was really special, and that Jeff couldn't imagine working with anyone else. "I feel like I could sleep for a week," he admitted, rubbing his tired eyes. He'd known the conversation was going to hit Deep and Meaningful levels, but it had gone above and beyond that, too. And that in and of itself could be tiring as fuck sometimes, when they weren't agreeing or finding common ground.
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Jeff couldn't argue with Nick's reasoning. They had fought tooth and nail for this little life they'd built for themselves, and this was the first time that they were truly comfortable. Nick's job was fantastic, Natalia was older and would soon be going to school, and usually, she went to bed at night and slept all night, leaving her daddies to get their much needed time together, too. This would change all of their lives, including hers, and Jeff knew that those things needed to be well taken into consideration before anything could be done that would shake them up. "Okay," Jeff replied, quietly but firmly. "Now's not the time. It isn't you're right. I really was all caught up in the cutesie side of it, and that wasn't really fair. I love you, babe. I love you, and whatever we do we need to do together, and we need to both be in it 100%. Just like when we got married, when we had Nat, when we opened the gallery. All of that stuff has worked out perfectly for us, because we've both been ready and sure." He leaned close, cupping Nick's cheek with one hand before he kissed him softly. "I love you, you know. and I do listen to you, as much as it sometimes seems like I don't." Sighing, he shook his head just a little. "Sometimes I wonder how you manage to put up with me, Nicky," he said lightly, kissing his husband's cheek. "I know I drive you crazy sometimes. I'm glad you still love me." It was a light, teasing comment, but there was some truth behind it. Jeff knew that he could be frustrating to Nick, and very often was. But they just somehow managed to work together in a way that was really special, and that Jeff couldn't imagine working with anyone else. "I feel like I could sleep for a week," he admitted, rubbing his tired eyes. He'd known the conversation was going to hit Deep and Meaningful levels, but it had gone above and beyond that, too. And that in and of itself could be tiring as fuck sometimes, when they weren't agreeing or finding common ground.